I love love?

Oh The Format: I love love, I love being in love, I don't care what it does to me...

 haha the funny thing is even then, the song goes on about all the crappy things that come out of love... Man. I never thought I would love anyone. And then I do fall in love with someone amazing. I'm not even going to act bitter and say he's terrible or anything like that. I just wish he would express himself better to me. BECAUSE. Right now I don't know what to think. He said he wants us to be together during the fall, and right now we're taking a break that consists of us still being together but being allowed to date other people. So confusing. I am in the wet cement of relationships, and I will be in this condition for another 12 weeks or so. I just wish I knew what he was really thinking. What are you thinking? Are we really getting back together? Are you hoping I find someone else so you don't have to break it to me? I called him a few days ago. His friend had told me that I should tell him how I'm feeling and that would help. I agreed that he deserved to know how I feel. I told him that I do love him and I miss him and blah blah. His response? "Oh I miss you so much! Yeah.. this is really hard because I want this break but I miss you, you know?" No I love you anywhere to be seen. And sure, to comfort me people say that it could have been implied or that I'm looking at the one thing that was lacking from the conversation when, in reality, it was a good talk. I don't know. I really don't. But you know? We are taking a break, and breaks consist of not talking, doing other things, and not worrying about things. It's a break... supposedly breaks are good things usually. Breaks from school, work, relationships. Then why does it hurt so much? I get so mad at myself for missing him and wanting to talk to him. I think I've lost him and I feel completely responsible.... Only 12 weeks to find out if that's true.